Bittersweet

Friday is my last day at my current job. I am excited and happy about my new job, but I’m also a little scared. It’s very different than what I’ve been doing for the last ten years. I find myself falling into the depths of “what if I can’t do it?”

And my cubicle has slowly but surely become my space at this job. I have my kettle, my mug, my tins of tea. I have my theater postcards and a strip of photobooth photos with Boyfriend tacked up. This week has seen all those things leave, get packed away, and taken home. Today is the last full day that I’ll work here, and the cubicle is quite empty. I’ve made my last cup of tea (Earl Grey), which is sitting in front of me. I’m finishing the last two biscuits with it for an afternoon treat. I’ve unplugged the kettle and stowed the tea tins in a box, where the kettle and mug will join them.

It’s a sad sort of quietness before what promises to be a busy week full of new beginnings next week. Again, I’m feeling my transitions acutely. I’ve been fielding the outpouring of well-wishes and sad-to-see-you-goes from colleagues and I realize that I will miss all these people, no matter how crazy they may have made me at one time or another. I will miss this space and this community and this job.

But it’s also the beginning of an adventure.

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2 thoughts on “Bittersweet

  1. Best of luck in your new job! I’m currently working abroad and finishing up the last year of my two year contract. I still have a quite a few months before I say goodbye, but I know the time will come. I catch myself thinking about what it will be like to go. I’m also a little scared of what the future holds, but I’m looking forward to being back home!

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    • Thank you so much! Yeah, I had a long goodbye the last time I changed jobs and it got frustrating because I tied up all my loose ends well before I was supposed to leave. This time I think I timed it just right.

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